While watching a 3 day spiritual seminar today, I was so excited and in ah of a quote-
“Calm equals trust–chaos equals conditioning.”
Yes, it’s so true and on the point. It’s a current bit of wisdom.
I’ve been involved in a tense 3 month awareness and inner cleansing healing session around my past. My Mom was quite a chaotic, unsettled, unhappy woman and her actions may have created massive nasty ramifications for my life. Now it’s time to research, review and unwind the damage.
Her actions, her speech, her moods were obvious to me because I trained myself to observe her behavior, actions so I could determine if she was safe to be around or on a rampage. If she was on a rampage, I was going to be beaten, belittled, ridiculed and lose my self esteem. So it was time to leave.
She definitely created chaos in my world. This chaos settled in my nervous system causing tension, fear, anger, and put me on a hi alert. To survive, I had to navigate her chaos. To protect myself I had to navigate her chaos. To grow up and live my life, I had to navigate her chaos.
I’ve spent my adult years trying to calm my nervous system, conquer and calm my illness, my pain both inner and emotional. It’s hard work, takes time, energy, discipline. But it opens the door to reconnecting to my intuition, my spirit guides, my spiritual wisdom, and it produces calm. I’m calm when I can trust my intuition to make the right decisions for my life. I’m calm when I feel strong enough to face a problem head on-to see it needs attention, some research and to know that I will make the right decision. It produces calm when I know I will gain something- some character trait, meet some essential emotional need, or some physical or mental need.
I love the feel of a sense of high self esteem and inner pride when the problem has been handled, the solution is relevant to my current work, and I see the benefit of facing problems, handling them so i get a resolution. This produces the high self esteem, the pride in doing my best and succeeding, and of being relieved of stress, tension of having the problem pop back up in my life.
Ready for some ZOOM sessions that allow us to uncover and analyze our childhood memories and start the healing. Drop me a comment and let’s get it started. ok amber amberdeann@gmail.com